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I Couldn't Believe My Eyes!

Wow, are we excited! As many of you know, Matt and I have been trying to conceive (TTC) over the past year and, well, it’s been a wonderful journey! I know that sounds odd, given how much time, effort and resources we’ve put into this journey, but here’s the deal… we're pregnant!

I couldn't believe my eyes when I stared at the big white dip stick. In a million years I thought I would cry and be overcome with emotion, but instead, I laughed...hard! I couldn't stop laughing and hugging Spunky. Matt was out of town, so I called him laugh crying and he couldn't make out what I was saying. He thought Spunky had died! LOL.

I finally slowed down and said "We. Are. PREGNANT!" His response was, "OMG I thought you said Spunky had died!" ...A great response just can't be planned. :)

I’m so glad we tried (read: I never like to say struggled) for a year. That window of time gave us the opportunity to really get clear on becoming parents, how sure we were of wanting children (we were looking into adoption) and here’s my biggest takeaway…

The year of “trying” gave me one of the biggest gifts of my life. In that year, I learned that I can’t struggle for something that is totally out of my control. I learned that I had zero control over if we got pregnant or not, and all I could do was enjoy the journey.I mean, what a life lesson! Stop struggling and trying to strong-arm God’s plans and start enjoying the journey. Yes. Thank you, Universe!

One of my girlfriends also gave me great advice over the holidays. She said, “When you go to Amsterdam, eat and drink (and…) whatever you want…have so much fun that you’re not even thinking about becoming pregnant! That’s when it will happen—when you’re totally not focused on it.”

Now, I don’t know if that’s true for all of us, but beer, Dutch donuts and the innocent happy high worked for us! #radicalhonesty

We had so much fun in Amsterdam (check out the pics on IG)--we can’t wait to bring our little one back there one day. Excited to share my pregnancy journey with you all and praying for all of the women who yearn as much as I did for a baby. As a good friend once told me, “Your baby will come, but it may not be in the way you expected…but your baby will come!”

Thanks for always staying positive and being such a huge part of my life! I hope I make you feel as loved and supported as you do me.

Photo Mary Beth Koeth